I am very, very tired. I think my optimism from the new year and finding some more time to do nice, creative things has well and truly run out already and we are just arriving in March! Not a good sign!
I keep promising myself I will post an update on this lovely canvaswork piece when I have at least finished the stitching… if not the construction but, despite being in the state of ‘nearly finished’ since Christmas, it really feels like every additional stitch somehow contributes nothing to the overall progress of the piece and perhaps there is a little imp sneaks in every night and undoes the stitches. On the plus side it does mean I have been doing a little bit of embroidery but it does feel like I’m working through sludge at the moment and areas and stitches I would normally find easy to work are proving challenging.
Maybe naively I had assumed that the push from a new move and new job would gift me with a bit more energy then it has. Instead I’m stuck being reminded why moving is such a pain and how annoying it is getting bills and routines set up and working out where stuff is when you need something. I made incredible progress on the unpacking when I first moved in, spurred on by a rather overambitious housewarming, and haven’t made an iota of progress since then…
This means that everything is still chaos, the floor is currently my best storage unit and I just occasionally look at everything that needs unpacking, organising and putting away, sigh, and move on with the day. I still need a few bits of furniture to really start being able to pack stuff away in a proper fashion but this part I have at least made a start on and ordered one or two pieces that are on their way. It turns out looking for furniture is a bit depressing and a real nuisance. While I think Ikea is surprisingly useable for the price, I suspect like many perpetual renters I am a bit sick of the sight of it but anything else seems to be vastly more expensive and just as boring. I wouldn’t mind if more expensive meant better quality but it’s horrifying how much you can charge for laminate and MDF. I would really love to find more antique pieces but time is something of a luxury at the moment and I’m not sure spending the bit of it I do have free traipsing around looking for things an inspiring thought. Any companies or recommendations from any of you? I am definitely not a fan of the whole ‘shabby chic’ aesthetic or probably anything considered vintage but I do like old. That, or something a bit lively and crazy – I just think I might go mad if I have to stare at any more white laminate or badly finished white wall paint!
I’m sure the lethargy will pass and I just need to be a little more patient for the time efficiency savings that come with familiarity to start. I am getting a bit grumpy though with the sense that everything has to be squeezed into scant moments where I’m too tired to have much remaining enthusiasm. The idea of running off on an embroidery retreat right now sounds divine!
There are so many things I want to work on but I am just feeling completely blocked. Much like for the house move, I’m staring at patterns, threads and ideas and just doing absolutely nothing about it. Again, this isn’t the first time or, I suspect, the last time that I have hit a bit of a creative slump. However, one of the things that does help is trying something different and I have been to a few interesting exhibitions lately and seem to have got back into regularly reading fiction. I used to be a voracious reader, and still do read a huge amount, but non-fiction and technical reports have largely replaced tales of Viking warriors and their war plans or the mystical world of a travelling circus. Be it books or art shows, I really do find it inspiring seeing what people at the top of their game can produce. Even if it is not my taste and I don’t like it, it is interesting to try and sit and work out what makes something great or revolutionary and that always contains a good lesson.
So many things to do!